Thought i was alredi got off with my fate tt i failed my ND paper on Sat. tot tt i able to take it whatever tings come to me abt results le...BUT I AM NOT...i really duno how to describe my feelings tdy lo...
I tink when a person is alredin so helpless, and when another shocking or devestating news come forward to e person, the person will not behave as per normal and resulting to stupid and shocking reactions or behaviours being made...
Well, I had to admit it was paritally caused by Joyce din bring my ND notes for me tdy@ service... i duno why oso..tt caused me to make myself a big fuss over it towards Joyce..@ tt time i was really pissed off..and gv her attitutde lo...and i ask her in a raged voice,:"How many times did I msg u to bring the notes?" Her reply was not impt, and i cant be bothered to hear her explanation @ tt time..and i jux told her i get it frm her tmr..though she wanted to ask her parents to pass it to me after tt. is jux that i dont want to make her parents 'ma fan'... okay.. Cased Closed. I will take frm her tmr @ church..and i tink i will study there tmr..
I broke down tdy..yeap..after having a long hugx with Joyce. e details shall not be revealed..lol...a nice hugx indeed..a warm-hearted moment tt makes me really says wat i feeling...but e time cant last...gotta go lessons..den i went in with tears filling my eyes...I got to admit i cant lose her as my fren..Sorry and tHx for being there for Me...
We chatted at night for sometimes..have not been toking to her on the phone for very long lehx...Gals talk.. and I ask her..was i very bad tdy? she say Ya..lol... she told me she almost cry when she sees me in that mood.. SOrry ah ma..but i cant really go ahead to her smiling, and tell her its okie and joke ard..cox' im not really feeling good at that time..i noe it myself...i cant act in frt of her anym..even though last time when im not alright... i still can joke ard..but tis time rd..i CAN'T...forgive me Joyce...i was really not in a good mood...8-p
After church..went to KorKor hse..den slept there in e late afternn..after tt wake up, eat, watch tv.. den my sis-in-law's sister was being told i failed my exams again by me... den she says..u ah..not serious in studies...yeap...it is true.. i know it myself..but i really put in effort in ND paper lo...i am really devestated abt it when i saw my results...not to mention abt other subj. neither...all results were a great disappoint tis sem...e most drastic and demoralising semester results ever received, somemore, it was e semester tt i put in all my efforts in it..and it turn out so bad..haix.. nvm... I Believe in this...
GOD WILL SHOW ME A BETTER WAY,
A BETTER ROAD,
A BETTER FUTURE TO ME.
THIS WILL BE JUST A SMALL SETBACK
I HAVE TO GO THRU' THIS TIME ROUND
ONCE I GET OVER WITH IT,
A BETTER ROAD AHEAD OF ME!
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